Sunday, March 13, 2011

First things

Steven Covey has this theory about putting first things first, making sure that your time and energy are being put in the right places and not being squandered. I've been thinking lately that I've been spending a lot of my life worrying about ridiculous things. I've been feeling a LOT of anxiety lately about... pretty much nothing. Not compared to what really matters. And today something clicked and I realized that it's my responsibility to create happiness in my life and equally important to set a tone for my home. I don't know about other mom's, but the saying "if mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy" would probably be one of those fancy vinyl sayings on my walls if I didn't think those were super tacky.

What are your "first things"? Here are mine:

Zach
Even though I don't treat him like he is a lot of the time. This one might be the kicker

My babies
Although they are my priority, I sometimes find myself feeling resentful about it. I often fail to fully embrace the fact that at this time in their young lives they are all-consuming. And that is okay.

My physical health
This one's the other kicker. I am just not the type of person who can be fully happy when I'm not working out several times a week. It's just a fact and I've been letting excuses keep me from being my best, most productive, happiest self. No more. This is about to change. In a big way.

My spirituality
Yes, I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. That being said, there are certain tenants of the gospel that I have not been living. Tenants I know are vital to my own, personal spiritual health. The main one is attending church. I know, right? Like, that seems pretty basic. I don't think I'm concidered "inactive" because I am ALWAYS there for 3rd hour (YW), and usually 2nd. But that first hour starts at nine AM and I've usually been up all night with little babies and the prospect of attempting to keep my two-year-old from unleashing his destructive powers on the entire congregation for over an hour is not the greatest modivator for me to get out of bed at 7:30 AM on one of the only days Zach is home from work. Lets just say it's been an aweful long time since I've taken the sacrament. But when I am there, God speaks to me. I feel my spiritual cup filled and it's heavy in my hand with love and modivation and the knowledge that my Heavenly Father knows me personally and is cheering my efforts to be a good, kind person and teach my children the same. So while there are times I feel like I've really done my best in the attendance department, there are certainly other times I really just have not made it a priority and therein lies my need to put this first.

I could probably list a dozen more but I guess the point I want to make is that I'm making some changes and taking some responsibility for my own happiness.

love, ali